May 26, 2004

Re-Focus

You know I must say that the World sucks right now. Lots of people dying, terror threats, war torn countries, elections, etc..

I do love American Idol though. I will be watching Fantasia win as a good distraction, but I know there are more important things. I just need to get off this current events are more important than anything right now. I am supposed to be writing a thesis here.

Anyway I'm trying to find things to focus me. I am trying to do a calendar. Also by not turning on my computer if I have to read.

I decided my first draft must be done prior to the US handing over power to the Iraqi. Of course then I found out that that's not going to be a REAL handover. Oh well. I'm still using June 30th.

Oh I found this:
http://www.matthewgood.net/blog/blog.html

its Matt good's Blog. Remember the Matthew good Band? Anyway there's no longer a band but matt Good's music has gotten much more political...

Here's my favourite Matt Good song... this one is for all the Americans.

Weapon"


Here by my side, an angel
Here by my side, the devil
Never turn your back on me
Never turn your back on me, again
Here by my side, it's Heaven

Here by my side, you are destruction
Here by my side, a new colour to paint the world
Never turn your back on it
Never turn your back on it, again
Here by my side, it's Heaven

Careful, be careful
Careful, be careful
This is where the world drops off
Where the world drops off
Careful, be careful
You breathe in and you breathe out
For it ain't so weird
How it makes you a weapon
And you give in
And you give out
For it ain't so weird
How it makes you a weapon
Never turn your back on it
Never turn your back on it again

Careful, be careful

Here by my side, it's Heaven

May 19, 2004

Sweet Dreams

Sweet Dreams - Tori Amos (wrtten about Bush Sr. revised for Bush Jr.)

"lie, lie, lies ev'rywhere," said the father to the son
your peppermint breath gonna choke 'em to death,
daddy watch your little black sheep run
he got a knives in his back ev'ry time he opens up
you say, "he got be strong if he wanna be a man"
mister i don't know how you can have

sweet dreams, sweet dreams

land, land of liberty
we're run by a constipated man
when you live in the past
you refuse to see when your
daughter come home nine months pregnant
with five billion points of light
gonna shine 'em on the face of your friends
they got the earth in a sling
they got world on her knees
they even got your zipper between their teeth

sweet dreams, sweet dreams

you say, you say, you say that you have 'em
i say that you're a liar
sweet dreams, sweet dreams

go on, go on, go on and dream
your house is on fire
come along now

well, well, summer wind been catching up with me
"elephant mind, missy you don't have
you forgettin' to fly,
darlin', when you sleep"
i got a hazy, lazy susan
takin turns all over my dreams
i got lizards and snakes runnin' through my body.
funny how they all have my face

sweet dreams, sweet dreams

May 14, 2004

Some people have no taste

Can you be anymore stupid and disgusting?

Dealing with body image and dieting

As you have read I have lost 30 pounds on a famous diet plan over a period of 4 months. Many people whom I know have reacted to this with "you didn't need to lose weight", or "you looked great, you shouldn't have felt bad about yourself."

Well letsee my BMI, which is the standardized North American way of determining whether you're overweight was 28 - my BMI is now 23. Which falls within the appropriate weight for my height.

According to Health Canada this means of gone from being overweight to a healthy weight:

"Health Risk Classification According to Body Mass Index (BMI) Classification BMI Category (kg/m2) Risk of developing health problems
Underweight < 18.5 Increased
Normal Weight 18.5 - 24.9 Least
Overweight 25.0 - 29.9 Increased
Obese class I 30.0 - 34.9 High
Obese class II 35.0 - 39.9 Very high
Obese class III >= 40.0 Extremely high

Note: For persons 65 years and older the 'normal' range may begin slightly above BMI 18.5 and extend into the 'overweight' range. "
from: http://www.hc-sc.gc.ca/hpfb-dgpsa/onpp-bppn/bmi_chart_java_e.html

BTW this has a great feature that charts your BMI for you.

ANYWAY I am happy with this. I, however would like to lose 10 more pounds. (BMI would be 21 to 22). Now the question is why?

I have to say I look good, I can't help it I look in the mirror and think - wow I did that! Seriously I look at the picture of myself at Christmas and go geez I was fat. What's ironic is that I didn't actually think I was that overweight until I was weighed by my doctor. Although I thought my chest was ridiculous. I was starting to get major shoulder problems. But at the time I was thinking -maybe I can get a breast reduction. You may laugh, but I really thought that was my only problem. Hence I went to my doctor, hence he said if I lose weigh and still was having lots of problems he'll send me to a specialist.

Well with exercise and diet and lots of yoga I'm having way less problems, combined with less weight in that area I have way less problems.

Now here's the dilemma. I would really like them to be in better shape and smaller (much to my husband's dismay). Is it, however, looks. If I look good now, imagine what I'll look like when I'm 10 pounds less! What worries e is that I still won't be happy.

I think I just need to get through maintenance and then see how I feel.

The linked article, BTW is about young girls dieting. I had weight issues when I was 13 too, but I wasn't dieting. This is because I knew I was still growing. However the worry is that with so many obese kids teens are being told to watch what they eat.

I dunno what to say, but its something to ponder.

May 12, 2004

If you Tolerate this...

If You Tolerate This Your Children Will Be Next - Manic Street Preachers

This song is reference to not tolerating a military takeover of a democraticly elected government. However, I do believe this song has many meanings today with the events in Iraq.
It is important to speak up when there are so many wrongs happening.


The future teaches you to be alone the present to be afraid and cold
'So if I can shoot rabbits then I can shoot fascists'

Bullets for your brain today but we'll forget it all again
Monuments put from pen to paper turns me into a gutless wonder

And if you tolerate this then your children will be next
And if you tolerate this then your children will be next, will be next will be next will be next

Gravity keeps my head down or is it maybe shame
At being so young and being so vain

Holes in your head today but I'm a pacifist
I've walked La Ramblas but not with real intent

And if you tolerate this then your children will be next
And if you tolerate this then your children will be next, will be next will be next will be next

'And on the streets tonight - an old man plays
With newspaper cuttings of his glory days'

And if you tolerate this then your children will be next
And if you tolerate this then your children will be next, will be next will be next will be next

...

Angels - Tori Amos

and with a wink
and a smile
you toss your instructions on
how to catch a train
while it's moving
you always were the one
that kept us all guessing
how you could survive
the fall you had

from medicine men
to my dj friends
they all have said
"he's got to watch his back"

they're trapping angels
by the potomac
but it's not how you think
you'd be surprised
they liberate
your dreamscape
till you can't remember
to recall
where your wings
have gone
tell me where they've gone

from jordan to chicago
another child is born
trusting that we'll get it
right this time
i should've worn my glasses
you said just to trust
then you chose
to sign the dotted line

from modern magdalenes
to my dj friends
they all have said
"he's got to watch his back"

they're trapping angels
by the potomac
but it's not how you think
you'd be surprised
they liberate
your dreamscape
till you can't remember
to recall
where your wings
have gone

May 11, 2004

A song for Rummy

poor poor Rummy, he had to answer softball questions about the torture scandal. This song's for him and his pal Georgie:

REM - Bad Day

A Public service announcement followed me home the other day
I paid it nevermind. Go away.
Shits so thick you could stir it with a stick
Free Teflon whitewashed presidency
We're sick of being jerked around
Wear that on your sleeve

Broadcast me a joyful noise unto the times, lord,
Count your blessings.
We're sick of being jerked around
We all fall down.

Have you ever seen the televised St. Vitus subcommittee prize
Investigation dance? Those-ants-in- pants glances.
Well, look behind the eyes
It's a hallowed, hollow anesthesized
"save my own ass, screw these guys"
smoke and mirror lock down

Broadcast me a joyful noise unto the times, lord,
Count your blessings.
the papers wouldn't lie!
I sigh. Not one more

Its been a bad day.
Please dont take a picture
Its been a bad day.
Please

We're dug in the deep the price is steep.
The auctioneer is such a creep.
The lights went out, the oil ran dry
We blamed it on the other guy
Sure, all men are created equal.
Here's the church, here's the steeple
Please stay tuned--we cut to sequel
Ashes, ashes, we all fall down.

Broadcast me a joyful noise unto the times, lord, Count your blessings.
Embrace the lowest fear/Ignore the lower fears
Ugh, this means war.

Its been a bad day.

Broadcast me a joyful noise unto the times, lord,
Count your blessings.
We're sick of being jerked around
We all fall down.

Its been a bad day...

It was worth it

I did go to Swiss Chalet. The fries were yummy!

Anyway I am nervous about my first week of maintenance. I have eaten like a pig. I am looking forward to finding out whether y weight changed much this week.

May 05, 2004

Wooo Hooo

I got my Gold Star!

Swiss Chalet Fries here I come!!!!!!

Well today is hopefully the last time I have to officially 'diet'. If all goes well during my weigh in I will have lost a total of 30 pounds. I'll be back to the weight I was 4 years ago.

Its herd to believe that I have gain about 8 pounds a year for four years.

Luckily losing it hasn't been THAT difficult. I have to say the journey has been amazing I've gone from a lazy grad student to a fit and productive person.

I would not say that Weight Watchers is for everyone, but I'm glad I joined. In theory I could have done a reduced calorie diet on my own, but I have to admit that the support of meeting had been great.

The carb diets were tempting but I'm glad I didn't. If you fall of the wagon on those you gain it all back. I feel sorry for those who have fallen into the trap of following, but not following the Atkins diet. Its so easy to do all the carb choice foods, but not really following it. I'm sure many are finding their not losing weight. Trust me when I say, a reduced calorie diet with laot of fuits, vegtables, and whole grains along with regular exercise will not only help you lose weight but make you healthier. No this isn't meant as an advertisment for Weifght Watchers, but seriously if you were thinking about losing weight there are many better food choices to make than eliminating healthy carbs.

Wesley Crusher.... For some that name may bring shivers.

anyway Wil Wheaton shouldn't be hated for Wesley. He's got a Blog for all to read.

http://www.wilwheaton.net

What's wrong with Curves? from AlterNet

For women of a certain age, Curves – a physical-fitness chain – seems like a blessing. No men, no mirrors. No expensive membership fees, no complicated dance-step routines.


Just walk in and change into your frumpiest sweats. Get a 30-minute complete workout on a circuit of hydraulic machines, arranged in a sociable circle so you meet other women. Nothing to remember: A pre-recorded voice tells you when to switch machines and do aerobics on rubberized mats. Get dressed and you're out the door.


What's not to like? Curves is inviting, rather than intimidating. Unlike many gyms, Curves fitness outlets don't feel like "meat markets" or look like nightclubs. By offering easy and accessible exercise, Curves helps some 2 million overweight and overworked middle-age women lose weight, get fit and improve their health – just what public-health officials hector us to do.


Not surprisingly, Curves is wildly successful. According to Entrepreneur Magazine, it now boasts 7,500 outlets and is the fastest-growing franchise in the world.


There are 68 outlets within 25 miles of downtown San Francisco. Most of them are tucked away in nondescript strip malls or office buildings, which keeps monthly membership fees as low as $29. Such modest locations also enhance the profits of franchise owners, who pay $29,000 to open a Curves outlet, plus a monthly royalty fee of $395. (For many women, it's a relatively inexpensive and convenient way to start a small business.)


So, is there any reason why you shouldn't rush out to join the Wal-Mart of gyms that's helping so many women improve their health?


Well, yes. The owner, Gary Heavin, has given at least $5 million of his profits to some of the most militant anti-abortion groups in the country.


Heavin, like his next-door neighbor George W. Bush in Crawford, Texas, found redemption as a grown man. Before founding Curves in 1992, he went bankrupt, lost custody of his two children and served a six-month jail sentence for not paying child support. In prison, he became a born-again Christian.


In 2003, Heavin and his wife gave away $10 million – 10 percent of their company's gross revenues – to charities. At least half of that money went to three Texas organizations to fund "pregnancy crisis centers" supported by Operation Save America – the same organization that blamed the Sept. 11 terrorist attacks on God's retribution for abortions and whose purpose, as described on its Web site, is to "unashamedly take up the cause of pre-born children in the name of Jesus Christ."


By offering the same health services provided by Planned Parenthood – except abortion – anti-abortion activists hope that privately financed alternatives would force the closure of any clinics that don't insist "you must carry your child to term."


Heavin, as he explained in a recent Christianity Today article, is proud to support these organizations. But at a few Bay Area outlets, both members and owners seemed surprised to learn this.


Leslie Warren, an Oakland hair stylist, quit a Curves outlet Wednesday because of Heavin's support of anti-abortion activism. In response, the franchise owner told Warren that Heavin does not use profits from Curves to support such organizations.


Some members, of course, share Heavin's religious beliefs. At 5-foot-3 inches, Brenda Hadley, a student adviser at Texas A & M University, had ballooned to 165 pounds. "If it wasn't for God sticking with me and the special relationships I've made with the Curves ladies," she told Christianity Today, "I'd still be sitting in my apartment watching movies and stuffing myself with Big Macs." Hadley said she lost 32 pounds at Curves.


Annie Lamott, a Bay Area writer whose last book was titled "Traveling Mercies: Some Thoughts on Faith," had a different response to Heavin's anti- abortion contributions. "I like Curves a lot but I love women's rights more. I hate the idea that this right-wing fundamentalist is making a profit on these places that make it easy for women to exercise. I don't see how, in good conscience, someone like me, a staunch feminist and progressive, can in any way contribute to any organization that undermines women's rights."


Here, then, is a feminist dilemma. Curves targets Baby Boomer women – many of whom consider themselves feminists – precisely because it offers a refuge from gyms that cater to musclemen or singles. Yet Heavin's contributions to anti-abortion groups goes against many women's deeply held belief that they should have the right to make their own reproductive choices.


What to do? Your decision. There are alternatives, including just plain walking.